Tuesday, June 30, 2009

4. Chemo today

while I'm typing this I'm sitting in hospital and getting my 4 Chemo. ..it's already 3 weeks ago since I got my last one...
in the past 2 weeks I was really upset and depressed sometimes...I think I spent to much time in the cancer forum and reading bad news from other people,...
I made my decission that I wont check the forum again..just for the mails with other lovely woman ;)
I got my self the book "Getting well again" from Carl Simonton (does anyone know this book?)...it really help me to focus on life ...before I read this book I had only negative thoughts most of the times but now I'm planing my future again... ;)
on monday I will have a apointment with plastic surgeon ..I want him to remove my breast (both) to feel more safe...I know it sounds weird for people who are not in my situation but for me it's the only way to feel more comfortable ....


Thursday, June 18, 2009

2. chemo today

while I'm writing this I'm getting my second chemo in the uniklinik göttingen...gladly they forgot to block my internet acount from my last stay in hospital....
I'm feeling fine today and I'm always waiting for the next chemo because it's one step closer  to get cancer cells out of my body ^____^
I will be tired and depressed for the next 3 days (I know it from last time) but I know it will go away...



*pic taken with macbook*

Friday, June 12, 2009

...loosing my hair

Since yesterday I'm loosing my hair...I will cut it short today...I'm afraid how I will look like without any hair ???!


Friday, June 5, 2009

...in uniklinik göttingen

I'm in hospital since yesterday morning...I went to routine blood test and the test results were so bad (less than 1000 leukocytes)that they decided to keep me here in isolation...
I don't feel ill or anything else...I feel fine so far..I just need to stay here untill the leukocytes rising over 1600...
maybe they will let me go home on monday..untill monday I will relax, takes pics from my room and enjoy the beautiful view out of room...
it feels like a hotel ...roomservice, tv, internet ...but there is one difference ...I'm not allowed to leave the room ^____^
Don't worry about me...just pray for the leukocytes to rise fast ;)
I hope the leukocytes won't be that low after next chemo otherwise I will get another chemo...but I really want that hard one to get all those cancer out of my body !!

*I will have internet connection from time to time ^_____^*